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[25 May 2005|11:39am] |
YEAH SO WHO EVER WROTE THAT SHIT IN MY LIVEJOURNAL ABOUT...
"ILL SUCK YOUR DICK FOR FREE"
THATS BULLSHIT...BUT WHO EVER WROTE THAT ATLEAST I CAN GET SOMEONE UNLIKE YOU!
SO WHO EVER WROTE THAT FUCK YOU SLUT!
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[09 Nov 2004|08:14pm] |
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Im better off alone then I would be in your arms.
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[05 Nov 2004|10:44am] |
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Ill walk around my house, and walk through the halls at school and see no one but myself, and i dont feel anything from anyone else, its like no one cares about me anymore, And i dont seem to understand any of my thoughts.
*Keven, We are both going through the same stuff, and you helped me alot and now i understand some more things clearly, your such a good and under-stand-able friend <3 thanks.*
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[04 Nov 2004|02:36pm] |
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[02 Nov 2004|08:08am] |
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"Something Vague"
Now and again it seems worse than it is, but mostly the view is accurate. You see your breath in
the air while you climb up the stairs to that coffin you call your apartment. And you sink in your
chair, brush the snow from your hair and drink the cold away. You are not really sure what you
are doing this for but you need something to fill up the days. A few more hours. There is a
dream in my brain that just won't go away. It has been stuck there since it came a few nights
ago I'm standing on a bridge in the town where I lived as a kid with my mom and my brothers.
And then the bridge disappears and I'm standing on air with nothing holding me. And I hang like
a star, fucking glow in the dark, for all those starving eyes to see, like the ones we've wished on.
But now I'm confused. Is this death really you? Do these dreams have any meaning? No. No, I
think it is more like a ghost that has been following us both. Something vague that we are not
seeing, something more like a feeling.
-bright eyes
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[30 Oct 2004|01:46pm] |
POST ONE THING THAT REMINDS YOU OF ME.
IT CAN BE ANYTHING.
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[30 Oct 2004|12:19am] |
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* im in tampa now * Me and brooke where going to go to this party but we told them we couldent because we thought we had to go to howl o scream tonight but thats tommorow night so like me and brooke went to the movies and dident even stay the whole movie, that happens every time we like can NEVER stay there and pay attention..a.d.d <3 well im going to sleep because im soooooo tired!!
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[28 Oct 2004|02:17pm] |
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-I dont feel good and my stomach was like making weird and loud noises in 1st and 2nd period.. it was embarassing it was because i was sooo hungry.. and like we were taking a test and it was all quite and then "mmmmmrraksjlhdksjahds" i was like uhhh "uh god im hungry" ::looks around:: haha. Yeah im at school because there isent anything to do in 6th period so i come in here and go online..yay! uh just kidding..um im going to try and not get online today..maybe ill go hang out with sean i dont know yet..my mom dosent get home till later, she is working late AGAIN..and there isent anything good in the house to eat..blah. Nevada and Chelsea and everyone are at challenge day or whatever that is, and i dident have anyone cool to walk with to class it sucks, man i cant wait till tommorow im going to tampa im sooo happy about that! Im coming home somtime sunday but i dont no what im going to do sunday night because like i heard everyone is gonna go out on saturday sense we have school on monday, but like i think me and nevada are just gonna go hang out and do somthing and like not go to sleep..my mom is going with me to tampa to brookes house and her and like 2 of my aunts are going on a cruise and she is coming back home thursday and sense i dont like my step dad i dont no what im going to do, i geuss ill just stay at Nevadas or somthing ahh i wanna go home and like i dont know, i wanna like eat or somthing im bored..and i want brookes code on livejournal but i cant figure out her password..she changed it..um Moriah was dressed up like a pirate and pirate day was yesterday and like it was soo funny because when we had a fire drill he ran behind the bushes and then made some weird noise i think he was trying to sound like a pirate..and it was sooooooooooooooooo funny i was laughing so hard, only a few people on livejouranl know him so it isent funny it was one of those *you had to be there* thingys. Im so bored and basically talking about anything that pops up in my head. _Sean_ yeah so I think me and brooke are going to the skate park with her friend Dan, he is cool, but last time i was with them he has a.d.d and like runs off the road omg but its funny, me and Brooke were in the back of his truck on the interstate or whatever and could have died..And i dont need to be in anymore crashes..ah im soooooooooooooo bored..And i bet noone is reading this because its so long and im talking about borning shit, not to many people read my livejournal anyways, I think this is going to be the longest entry ive ever wrote and im about to go back to class now because its like 10 mintues before the bell rings and like i dont wanna wait in here because they make you wait and thats shitty...im soo tired and i cant wait till saturday night me and brooke are gonna go to howl-o-scream and kenny and chelsea are going to be there i think..well im bored and have nothing to say so im going to go..
*<3*
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[27 Oct 2004|05:56pm] |
God i hate it here in Gainesvilllllllleee im never fucking happy.. :( yeah so this weekend im going to brookes house im tampa..*where i wanna live* ah i love it there..and hate it here! yeah some lady got killed today at santa fe..crazy.
nevada is like all sad and everything aw nevada i hopppe that you get better i love ya! <3 ha
Yeah but im sad and i dont no why and i dont wanna tell everyone on livejournal my life..yup so i dont no what the fuck is going on its weird. I felt like i was fucked up on pills today..it was soo weird.. and my pupils where even huge..but i havent done pills in like 3 or 4 weeks because im not going to fuck my self up and do that shit..
*plus* ++++ if i want things to work out with me and sean then i cant be doing pills and all that :-/ **cough cough** corrisa! aw just kidding? not really...but yeah I dont no what is going on with me and sean i like him and all but i dont know how things are going like i dont think he likes me anymore or somthing.. he seems like he dosent like me. Then somtimes it seems like he does? ah this is so confusing!!! :( mannn im so stressed out with how things are going with my family and stuff. fucking sucks. :( i like need somebody.
<33 ?
--brooke i hope you feel better. ill see you on friday..
um.. i dont no what im doing for halloween
and tommorow im hanging out with my mom and going shopping i belive!
I wish things where like they used to when me and kara were better friends and everything and when me and nevada where closer and would basically lived at each others houses..and i liked it when my family got along. And ill i am doing is complaning now! Like i dont even wanna be online and talk to people maybe i wanna talk to like sean brooke or nevada..but like everyone is pissing me off and im not pmsing or anything ive just been so weird acting latley and i dont like it at all...and i miss my dad? what got my mind off of all that sadness? its all coming back and it feels like everything is attacking me again. :(
Leave a comment if you want. <3 love lauren
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[26 Oct 2004|08:02am] |
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im not up dating anymore unless i get comments which i dont have friends so i wont get any...oh yeah I might be moving to tampa.
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[26 Oct 2004|08:02am] |
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im not up dating anymore unless i get comments which i dont have friends so i wont get any...oh yeah I might be moving to tampa.
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[21 Oct 2004|01:56pm] |
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was going to go to tampa but plans got changed...and sean is in miami :( lol ill be hanging out with nevada and kara and angelique and people :)
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[17 Oct 2004|11:13am] |
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okay so...
Friday night..me Sean Chelsea and seans friend (forgot his name) haha we all stayed at Chelseas..because we were all going to st. augustine in the morning they were gonna go skate at the skatepark and we were also going to see Kenny..so yeah it took like 4957834504 hours before we got to the skatepark lmao because we couldent find it, it was like out in the middle of no where..then saturday night I came home and went right to sleep because i was sooo tired. And i still kinda am....but yeah...I really like sean :)
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Today after school if I feel up to it im going to go hang out with Chelsea, Kenny and Sean. Im feeling better I just still have a runny nose :-/ ill update later.
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"Padraic My Prince"
i had a brother once
he drowned in a bathtub before he had ever learned how to talk
and i don't know what his name was but my mother does
i heard her say it once, padriac my prince i have all but died from the
sheer weight of my shame. you cried but no one came and the water filled your
tiny lungs. appear, my dear, and cry for me. it was six years ago today that
we laid you in your grave, your sweet young skin was shining then too.
and so tonight to celebrate i will poison myself.
another coughing, shaking fit in a bathroom that is spinning.
so i close the door and rest my head on the tile floor,
sickness and sleep turning me cold.
i am still not sure, is there some better place i could be heading towards?
where the selfishly sick and self absorbed are welcome.
i saw the future once.
i was drunk in a phone booth.
my eyes were wet and red but i could not tell what was said
and through the screams of the traffic voices carried saying
i am sorry
on a day so gray its black inside
watching churches on tv
in a coma you don't dream you just hope that someone sits with you
babies turn blue when they are ignored like the sky on summer days
before you turn and walk away it has changed you
so tonight to compensate i will poison myself
another coughing, shaking fit in a bathroom that is spinning.
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[12 Oct 2004|11:36am] |
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ha-ha-ha I love you Brookie.
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[11 Oct 2004|05:11am] |
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this weekend was awesome friday night i went to chelseas house and we went downtown and shit then saturday night me kim chelsea zac and corrisa went downtown to a show and like everyone was there and we left and went and hung out with Sean and Kenny...Im not in the mood to update or w.e so ill update later and plus im at school...later today me Sean chelsea and kenny are hanging out. peace.
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[09 Oct 2004|11:11pm] |
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[06 Oct 2004|05:21am] |
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great, When I come home from school I have to show my dad my progress report, Corrisa is taking my bus home today, I dont no why because I cant hang out, My dad is going to get the call that I dident go to school yesterday, because the school is gay and they call your house! :-/ my mom nows that I stayed home but my step dad dosent and he is gonna get all mad. Great! well im in the library and me and Angelique are bored and we are leaving, oh by the way happy birthday Zac, and Brooke am I coming to your house this weekend, I no that im going to Miami in 2 weeks to go see Ginny and Matt, are me and my mom coming by your house and picking you up? Please come.
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